Hi everybody, Holly here. I wanted to take a moment to say hi to everyone and to let you know that I will be resuming my blog post. They may not be on a daily basis but I will do my best to make them at least on a weekly basis.
Let's see where to start.
The house hunting thing was a bust. I have a few more things that I need to do with my credit before I can purchase a home. But I am optimistic that by the time next November rolls around I will be a homeowner.
I have started writing a book about my journey throughout this horrible year I've had. I am also including people that I have helped and or that I have inspired. So if I have inspired you please take a moment and either PM me on Facebook or text message me or leave your name in the comments of this blog post so that I may ask you a few questions in regards to how I have inspired you or how I have helped you.
My children. All of my children are dealing with the loss of their sister Alexandria and the loss of their would be stepfather John in their own way. They have been in counseling, they have throwing temper tantrums, they have Sawtooth Rd, and gotten into trouble with me about not listening and cleaning up after themselves. But as the children have grown this last year they have realized that life is short and there's no need to be rude and nasty all the time at each other. They have been getting better but they still struggle and I understand that. I understand their struggle because not only did I not grieve when I needed to grieve but I shut down. And when I shut down I didn't take care of myself. I didn't allow those close to me in and I put up walls around me. I shut my heart off from the world. I shut my heart off for my family and my friends and my children. I knew I couldn't break down I knew I had to be strong I knew that I had to keep working because I was the only provider that was taking care of my family. But I can honestly say that when push came to shove I took a four-month leave from my job. And in those 4 months I was able to do my business. As many of you know I am a younique presenter. And I was able to be a mom without all the hassles of the long hours and the long drive to and from work and the missing out of all the events and fun things that the kids got to do at school and in the process of getting ready for school. I've got to take care of things around my home. I got to spend time with my children and I got to be a stay-at-home mom. For those that have never been a stay-at-home mom I can tell you that is a glorious feeling it is a Feeling of other accomplishments. Now I'm not saying that those moms that aren't able to stay home with their children are failures that will never come out of my mouth because that's just untrue. Mothers that work like I do full-time jobs and have a job on the side work hard to give their children everything that they need. Like a roof over their heads food and their stomach clothes on their backs and all the supplies that they need for school to be successful throughout the year. What some people don't realize as us moms that work whether you are a stay-at-home mom or you're a nine-to-five mom or your at end of to Mom or if you're a 14 hour a day Mom we work for our children we work for our family. And I am not leaving out single dads single dads do the same thing they have to hustle just as hard as we do. my children. All of my children are dealing with a loss of their sister Alexandria and the loss of their would be stepfather John in there own way. They have been in counseling, they have thrown temper tantrums, they have thought Authority, and gotten into trouble with me about not listening and cleaning up after themselves. But as the children have grown this last year they have realized that life is short and there's no need to be rude and nasty all the time at each other. They have been getting better but they still struggle and I understand that. I understand there struggle because not only did I not grieve when I needed to grieve but I shut down. And when I shut down I didn't take care of myself. I didn't allow those close to me in and I put up walls around me. I shut my heart off from the world. I shut my heart off from my family and my friends and my children. I knew I couldn't break down I knew I had to be strong I knew that I had to keep working because I was the only provider that was taken care of my family. But I can honestly say that one push came the shove I took a 4 month leave from my job. And in those 4 months I was able to do my business. (As many of you know I am a unique presenter.) And I was able to be a mom without all the hassles of the long hours and the long drive to and from work and the missing out of all the events and fun things that the kids got to do in the process of getting ready for school. I got to take care of things around my home. I got to spend time with my children and I got to be a stay at home mom.
For those that I've never been a stay at home mom I can tell you that is a glorious feeling it is a feeling of accomplishment. Now I'm not saying that those moms that aren't able to stay home with their children are failures that will never come out of my mouth because that's just untrue. Mothers that work like I do full time jobs and have a job on the side, work hard to give their children everything that they need. Like a roof over their heads food in there stomach clothes on their backs and all the supplies that they need for school to be successful throughout the year. What some people don't realize is us moms that work (weather you are a state home mom or your i-95 mom or your attend to mom or if you're a 14 hour a day mom) we work for our children we work to give our children the very best that we possibly can with what we have.
In closing all I have to say is keep your head up. Stay strong. Believe in yourself. Believe in the strength that you have inside of you.
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