Where the heck to i begin this... first my van (that i've had only 18 months) takes a crap on me and will cost $5000 to fix.... then my car takes a crap... I swear, if i could afford to own a horse, i'd ride it to work!!!!
It really is my luck ya know. Anyway, as many of you know i filed a chapter 13 bankruptcy. It (in my honest opinion) has been the best decision i could have made for my family. In the short 9 months i've been in the process of the bankruptcy, my credit score has been AMAZING. I know a lot of people have told me "don't file bankruptcy it'll ruin you for 10 years". Bull hockey!!!! I'm in the process of buying a home!!!!! Yes, you read that correctly!!
Don't let others ruin your sunshine!
Thursday, July 12, 2018
Wednesday, May 23, 2018
Its been 3 years today...
Alexandria
July 17, 1995 - May 23, 2015
Dear Alexandria,
I don't know how to breath any more. I don't know how to live each day any more. I see you in your brothers and your sister. I see your smile in Joshua, your laugh in Maleah, your kindness in Jeremy and your hardheadedness in Michael... as for Johnathan, I see YOU in him soo much.
Each one of your siblings has something that is YOU. Its a daily reminder and one that i cherish and will always cherish because of how much i love you. I loved you when you where alive, and i love you just as much (if not more) that you are gone.
Alexandria, you are missed by so many people. Your such a beautiful young lady. Since you've been gone, so many things have happened, some good and some not so good. But everything will be okay in the end, i just know it.
Momma misses you. I hurt today with every single ounce of my body. Its been 3 years and i just want to hold you. Hug you, kiss your forehead and tell you everything will be okay, i'll make it ok... but i can't because your gone.... your gone, and not coming back. I wake up every morning HOPING & PRAYING that you're still here, that you are going to call me and tell me about your pitties or some other animal you brought home (ya got that trait from your Momma)... Or i check facebook and hope to see some crazy post or meme. Momma is lost without you honey. Mommas heart is broken and it can't be fixed... time can't heal this... nothing can.
Your beautiful urn sits on my side table. I talk to you every day (at least to your urn). Alexandria help Momma get through this...
I love you Alexandria... I'd give you my life, if it would give you back to us.
Love forever and always,
Your Momma
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